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I believe many of my readers want to know a bit more about me. As you may have noticed i like to keep a lot of mystery around me. It’s not because of some shyness (even if i’m pathologically shy in real life) but only for playful reasons. Yes i think it’s fun to imagine what my readers might dream or imagine what i look like or what kind of person i am. |
I guess it’s because i always had trouble socializing at school with my classmates that i finished to be a person who don’t go out very often, who’s afraid of crowded places and that it takes a very long time to build a relationship with me as i don’t trust easily.
Indeed i have no more than 2 real friends and around 10 peoples i know and meet occasionally. (even rarely for some of them)
I can’t lie or pretend i’m interested in something just to be polite. If i don’t like you, you’ll be aware of it very rapidly ^^
If i don’t care about a subject, i’ll tell you right away because it pisses me off. Don’t even try to talk to me about cars or sports, you’ll just be ignored.
I often may sound harsh on people but it just the way i am, hating hypocrisy beyond everything else.
The people who like me are people who like my honesty and they are happy when i tell something loudly that everybody was thinking but keep their mouth shut 
Be sure i really mean what i wrote to a comment i leave on your own blog, i don’t bullshit people, there’s enough bullshits as it is so i prefer to not add some more.
Anyway, what’s my point here, i noticed many bloggers preferred a calm and discrete life away of big social events, staying at home watching and playing rather than going outside to live concerts, dancing or any other gathering.
It’s an interesting turn to see a large part of humans who share a large amounts of interests to be so unlikely to socialize like “normal” people.
I don’t consider myself to be normal. I have a lot of skills at my disposal, i can speak 2 widely used languages, love to speak about sciences and space related conversations, listen a lots of musics and in the end i generally find people to be boring… superficial.
Do i ask too much to the persons i have to meet in my daily routine ? Maybe and maybe that’s why a limit to a maximum the amount of persons i talk too.
I’m that kind of person and it’s been a very long time, since this behavior leaded me to my passions i’ll start by describing what were my first steps in video games and animes in the Part 2 since the Part 1 is already well loaded
I already did a small speech about that in Lylibellule blog presentation as she asked me to write a small text about my passion so feel free to go take a look.
See you soon folks
I’ve always imagined you to look like Iori, but that’s probably because of your avatar.
I too find it interesting how many of us have become “introverted”, yet are so wanting to share and communicate with others through the means of a terminal rather than face to face. So many of my friends communicate through facebook only now, myself included. Perhaps it’s just you end up being like those that hang around you, and vice versa.
Being brutally honest has its pluses and minuses. The pluses obviously being that you wind up with true friends, which are really hard to come by. What’s the point in wasting your time on friends that barely appreciate it, amirite?
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Ah ah i might not be as sexy as Iori lol but thanks anyway :p
What’s weird with me is that i’ve never been able to communicate using internet like using facebook. In fact i did create a account on facebook last year (i think) but deserted it a month later and asked facebook to destroy my account (not just disable it)
This blog is really something new to me and it already lasted longer than any other way i used to communicate on internet before.
I’m definitely more at ease writing by opposition to face to face talking.
Clearly being deeply honest has some drawbacks but in the end, everything seems easier. I don’t have to worry about “pretending” or lying.
And yeah the people who say they like me, i know deeply they REALLY like me. This is simply priceless.
I normally don’t talk to many people in the real world, but it’s just the way I grew up. When I was a kid, I had a really soft voice so no one ever heard me and eventually I just stopped trying to speak to people.
Even to this day people still have trouble hearing me even when I’m shouting. I guess that’s why I write, it can be seen no matter how soft your voice is
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In the real life jungle of jerks i guess if you can’t put you in the front line you’ll be easily ignored.
I can be loud myself but i’m so shy i never raise up the volume of my voice (even if i’m capable to)
Indeed i never were able to ask a question to my teacher during class lol, maybe that’s why i grew up so independent and resolved every problems i had my myself.
hmmm I try to be honest me in reality is the same with me in blog
don’t worry people blogging hide their self it’s normal
It’s so easy to pretend to be someone else on internet
Its best to stay true to yourself! I prefer the company of a few close friends then lots of people who I don’t feel a connection with. I used to be very quiet in school (but i aced my grades) ….nerd!!!…but I treasure those few friends that I have ^^
Sadly when I find when you step into the working world, you can’t be too honest….got to be tactical when making comments about other people ^^ I wish the world was a much more simpler place…life is complicated as it is!!
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I couldn’t agree more ^^ I was also veeeeeery quit in school. I won’t say i aced my grades like you did lol but i manage to finish all my years without any huge problems.
A successful party for me is no more than 5 people, more and i start to feel uncomfortable. As i hate noises, too many is just annoying to my ears, there’s no way you can talk to everybody anyway so why bother.
Mmm yeah working world, you’re forced to work with people you don’t have any connection with and it’s a huge challenge to me.
Well my job is in a small company so it’s manageable for me for now, but we’re growing … i’m a bit afraid sometimes.
Yeah life is complicated, definitely especially love lol
i love how you are honest to yourself and others, liking you more already.
well, ive always been shy and anti social growing up and its become a problem for me to communicate nowadays. not that i dont want to, its just that im not used to it or dont know how to anymore? its so draining for me too keep up with the craziness of this social world T_T at least starting a blog has been a pretty positive thing for me ^^;
i also keep to myself a lot so i prolly have the personality of a rock XD but thats not why my alias is “rock”lee Lol
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Thanks you
I also appreciate you 
It’s not for a very long time i can be very honest like i said. For many many years i was very tortured and totally inadequate to normal social life.
I still have a lot a problem making phone calls and asking something to a stranger in the street can be challenging too.
So i totally understand what you’ve gone through.
Ah ah i may sound like a rock too lol but when you get to know me (it takes a long time so be persistent) i’m a very cheerful person ^^
Wonder where “rockleelotus” come from now ?
ahh tortured is a good word for this social struggle im experiencing lol ^^;; you dont sound like a rock at all! in fact you seem to be spreading cheer where ever you comment
oh “Rock Lee” is my fav character from Naruto. he is a ninja who cant use ninja magic and is ridiculed for it. but he overcomes and makes up for it with pure hard work and dedication, his struggle is very very sad but inspiring.
and “Lotus” because i love how it symbolizes life. to grow and push through the dirt and darkness up into the water where it cleanses itself. and finally revealing its true beauty to the world ^^
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Being not very socialized don’t mean i’m not cheerful ^^ In fact i’m very cheerful but it takes time for me to feel at ease enough to relieve myself.
Be sure if i say lots of stupid things, i’m feeling at ease with you
Oh yeah Rock Lee ^^ How can i didn’t think about him immediately. A very cool character indeed.
The Lotus is very important in Bouddhisme am i right ?
Well said Katsura-chan. Honesty is the best policy. I like and enjoy honesty. Keep it up. But, I must agree with radiant on the pluses and minuses, also chubbybots on honesty in working society. Sometimes, we just need to be tactical…
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Thanks ^^
Well tactics is … not easy for me to do but that’s mainly because i’m stubborn like hell looool
I’ll do my best
I’m introvert as well and have only few close friends. But opposite to you, I’m not a very straight forward speaker. I tend to listen even when I’m not interested. Guess what, doing that doesn’t help me make more true friends -sign-
btw, what inspires you to write this post? I’m just curious ^_^
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I’m a straight forward speaker not for a very long time and usually i prefer ignoring rather than verbally assault a person lol
But yeah if you want to talk to me about something i’m not even remotely interested in … be aware that i’ll be aggressive
Honesty is the best way to make real friends but whatever approach you consider, real true friends are veeeeeeery rare.
Well in fact i just thought it would be fun to share what were my first experiences with gaming and animes/mangas with my readers.
I remembered few games i spent hours playing and wanted to told you ^^
Without knowing i wrote half the text realizing it was only about me and my personal social behavior.
Of course it’s directly related to my “gaming” age but i decided to keep this for a part 2 and deepened my thoughts about my socialization skills
Writing is something i don’t plan at all, it comes and go with my mind so it’s not surprising it turned that way.
Still nice to see someone who is telling the truth and don’t keep the mouth shut.
And who is normal in this world?
I think you are “normal” too. You are a living being that just like to do things that not all people do in your area. But you see them on the internet because you can search for them and find them.
Anyway, I’m not normal too since I’m an Otaku! XD
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Thanks
Nobody is normal, i can’t remember who told this but i like it : “There’s no such thing as normality, just a large number of madness variations”
I kinda agree with this, we’re all tortured in our own ways.
True i’m feeling less alone since internet has become accessible. Back then i only had the kids at school to talk to and it wasn’t great at all :/
Haha!!!
Katsura-chan unveil herself. 
I recognize myself in what you say. Me too i’m not the kind of person who go out often and easily trust people. Just like you i only have 2 real close friends.
I agree with you as when i leave a comment it has a meaning.
I’m looking forward to read the next part!
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Yeah but you already know more about me than anyone else here sweetheart
(i hope you don’t mind i call you sweetheart lol)
But don’t tell anything, it’s our secret
Trusting people is a very long process. It takes month for me to begin feeling at ease with someone and unveil my true self.
Pierre Desproges (a french philosopher) said : “True friends are the only people who really can disappoint you”
I do agree with this since you can be deeply hurt by someone only if you care about him/her.
So you have only 2 real friends too ? I wonder if i can become the lucky number 3
Honesty IS the best policy
Maybe that’s why I like blogging. Because I can drop the facades and talk about things in a manner that interests me/is me. It’s a morality thing – in the end, facades and tactical deception will allow one to claw their way higher up the social hierarchy much quicker than honesty can. But will one stand for it?
Truly close friends aren’t ever numerous. I’ve noticed friends one makes in the primary to middle school period to be the most lasting. Social standing and cliques become too strong and gain too much importance afterwards for one to easily make lifelong friends.
I remember that hikkikomori post… It is fun to see what people imagine of you~
you should add this to your about page!
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It’s not always easy to be honest especially with very sensitive subject (family, children, religion …). I have an opinion on everything of course but yeah, i think i should keep my mouth shut sometimes
Myself i don’t want to go up in the hierarchy, too much problems and you have to deal with too many people.
From my school periods i don’t have any friends left. Some lost interested in me or i jerked them out myself. Well i remember not having any friends at all the time between my diploma and my first job lol
A full year without any real friends
Maybe i’ll made a short version of this text for my about page, that’s a good idea
Yeah, popularity is most often just a bid to conform… That’s why I can’t attribute my behavior at school to much more than a facade, because I can’t find the effort to genuinely care for their cliques and shallow ideas.
Sorry if I made you remember something unpleasant… imho though, friends that ‘lose interest’ aren’t real friends anyhow.
Patiently waiting on part 2. Or is that not to come immediately afterward >.<?
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I really respect and admire that honesty and being true to yourself. That’s something I can never do. Haha, I’m sort of a hypocrite in a lot of areas.
Anyway, I understand wanting to keep an air of mystery around yourself. It’s fun!
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Thank you
Well if you’re honest on the comment you leave here it’s fine with me lol
Mmmm yeah being a mystery girl on internet is a lot of fun
I think I am usually honest with my comments. ^ ^
Or am I not being honest with this comment? Haha… J/k…
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I know a little bit more of you in every post
You are very special and sincere and as you said, introverted, but who isnt introverted in a good way? Lol
You also know 2 languages? cool.
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I guess you’re a curious then
Being a bit introverted is for me a good thing but not too much or you become so discrete nobody even remember you ever existed looool
Yes 2, French and English ^^ Yes i’m aware my English is far from perfect but since this blog is running quite fine i guess that means my level is correct enough
Very cool post i don’t know you well like others but you seem like a very cool person! and normal is boring more fun to be crazy! at least sometimes lol..i wish i knew two languages i got bored in Spanish class..well i hope to read more fun and interesting posts! i am new to blogging too only really doing reviews so its nice to read posts like this, take care! and i always think people look like their avatars too xD….
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Ah ah yeah fortunately there’s some crazy people to put excitement in meeting new persons. Be sure i’ll continue to create interesting posts for you folks
I don’t have any schedule and post feeling my mind only.
Mmm feel free to imagine me as Iori, it’s more than satisfying for me
J’aime beaucoup lorsque tu parles des gens qui veulent discuter avec toi de sports et de bagnoles. Out les beaufs
je me retrouve pas mal dans certains de tes propos
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Je vais m’autorisée un écart et répondre en français :p
Bon je n’encoure pas en hurlant à l’énonciation de tous les sports quand même mais pour la grande majorité d’entre eux je préfère m’enfuir le plus rapidement possible.
Le plus insupportable restant tout ce qui touche de près ou de loin à l’automobile.
Tu veux me faire fuire c’est simple : prononce la phrase “Tu veux voir ma nouvelle voiture ?”
I’m sorry, when I wrote this comment it was early this morning and i was very tired.
Gomenasai
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Lol it’s ok don’t worry
I’ll give you a good spanking anyway so be prepared 
Yep, I’ m looking forward this
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Yeeah. I love it. Very very interesting content.
I feel the same as you sometimes, and especially the part about the mystery around you. I find awesome to talk directly and deeply with a person over chats or blogs. I believe it is a strength of the internet. There is less psychological barrier, no shyness or anything like that.
To speak directly with a person who have the same hobbies, same tastes is great.
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Definitely i’m more at ease with people on internet basically because often we share the same interests.
And for me it’s mandatory to have something in common to be able to talk to each other
It’s rewarding actually ^^ Even if i’m on internet for many years i’m really active only since my blog is online.
Before that i only read information and never reacted upon them.
So in short your an honest,young Lady which may be seen as unsocial by certian groups but is in my eyes the far more social behavior.
There are already way too many people faking so Im glad you arent on of those
Still we all have our secrets known only to a very very few amount of people and i’m no exception
And yeah i sound kinda antisocial to some groups of people but as long as i stay trustful to who i’m in my head, mind and soul i’ll be fine.
Everyone should keep their secrets and the world would be a scary place if thered be none.Id simply wish people would be more honest in certain aspects and not fake something for their advanatage
Honesty…
In real life I try to be able to read the situation. In real life I am sometimes honest and sometimes I lie. I become misleading (synthetic in a way) and throw false punches because I find it entertaining to screw with people… but on the other hand, if it is a serious time I act mature and stay on the side of truth.
However, on the internet, my character dai1313 is honest as much as possible while still trying not to hurt anyone. Sometimes I wonder if I am actually being as honest as possible… or if I am worrying about my image too much.
I use a handful of other screen names when I want to cause trouble. Of course, I am not going to tell you who they are.
Well of course it would be very arrogant of me to pretend i never lied.
Usually i prefer to say nothing rather than lying.
And my image … i just can’t lie to give a cool image of me. It’s not that i don’t want to, i just can’t.
So you have other identities to cause trouble. I’m definitely more an adept of ignoring people and i never wanted to cause trouble willingly ^^
Maybe i’m too soft, maybe.
The lies are not to give me a cool image, they occur because of my lack of caring about my image in the first place.
Wow, I could have SWORN i commented on this earlier
lol, meh, well at any rate, I look forward to hearing more about you!